Never ending story (N.E.S.)

I thought about this a lot and I finally got to a sense with myself.


We all have that one person who we love. And maybe love is to much, let's call it better admiration. Or attraction. Yeah, attraction is the best word to describe this. Like any other normal girl (at least I hope it's normal, if not, well, freak is what I am haha) I used to have this stupid crush on someone. For a long time, yeah, I guess 2 years or something like that. And I don't even know if it's a crush or a strange feeling of attraction towards him.

I never talk about him or about my life because I honestly think it's waaay to personal for other people to get involved, especially if they don't have anything to do with the facts. But you're total strangers to me (lucky meee) and I feel better knowing you don't know me, you won't talk about this @ my college, with my friends, with him. LOL.


I thought about it a lot and I think, I mean, I'm not even sure if this is it, but anyways. I think I don't have a crush on him. Or maybe I do but hate to admit it. He attracts me in some kinda way and there's just nothing I can do about it. The biggest problem is that: we NEVER dated, all the time is like "now I want you" and the next second he's like "woh dude check out that girl over there she's freakin hot!" with me standing right beside him. Ugh, I hate those moments when I'm like.. Ok, and what am I supposed to say now?

Anyways, so everytime is the same silly old story. He did try several times to kiss me and tried to get us together but everytime damn! he gets drunk. Ok, he's sweet and funny and I looove making fun of him when he's drunk hahah (eeeevil) but come on man, you have to be drunk every single time you try to hook up with me? So I said no. 3 times. And guess what, he's still here!

You might ask how is he when he has no alcohol in his system. Well, freakin' shy! And by shy I don't mean he doesn't talk or something like that, it's just that he keeps some kind of a distance from me... I know he's shy when it comes to his friends, because they all have biiiig mouths and they're like gossiping all the time.

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This is an introduction part of the story. It's a short one, just to get you guys ready for what comes next, and trust me, I am going to reveal some.. unrevealed secrets! I only hope I have the courage to do it and hopeeeefully, none on my friends from school finds the blog or I'm busted like busted is written in caps! BUSTED! hahaha

Xo.

(to be continued...)